Tuesday, September 21, 2004
darn it... today so damn... sianx.. and... very ap-ish!
as usual... everything is fine today... and ms quah didnt come today... then ms wong came to take over.. and gave us some worksheets to do loh... erms... i did and let ppl copy lah... then... i went over to qarihah's table becos eugene told me to, then back to my seat, then back to mine... blahs... lots loh... then... i went over to bernadette's there... and teach her do the chinese mah... then the ms wong kehkeh warn the class to soot me to shut up! Like duh, dun deprive ppl of their chance to study yea~ haax, hilarious abt tt one... then... it was history... i now loving the subjects i hate more... i love maths, history and... science!! hmm, maybe it's the subconcious mind that pushes me to do everything to win ppl lyk her, for hatred. i will prove i can be better... in fact... i am... but not the best... haax... i not bhb one... i know when to stop... kks, i shd stop... so... recess lahs... over le ish lifeskills loh... all is well... until after sch...
today got HC, so i, crystal , jolyn and lai pao took jolyn's mom car to ngee ann... then jasmine got to stay back for mathemometer then cant go... ai ya, then on the way... i felt a bit car sicky then i didnt talk.. dun think that means anything that i bs. then... at the nass canteen.. i bot some things and heard laipao calling some other girls big fat pig... then i turned over and say i know u not saying me ^^ then she rebuke as if i provoke her liddat... wad, ap? only u can say me isit... then i didn say anything... phew~ then okie okie calm down le... do compo test... and finished it... then after sch i was racing wif her ard the bus stop out of boredom.. quite chilkdish when i come to think of it.. lolx. then... we board the bus... blahs.. when she bend down to tie shoe lace, i put her ticket in her shirt just like what she used to do to me. then she got angry. like duh? ii wont angry de hor. nahs, ok abt tt... jokin only... WE know. then... i dunno wad i said... abt some secrets between friends thing... i accidentally blurted out that i got secret wif jolyn... then she want to know loh. then i say right. i say wanyi say she cannot trust one. its the truth wad, she say one, i didnt spread rumors like *SOMEBODY* did loh... yars... thats wad i said... then... she angry liao. i just said (i think) that it may affect my trust for her... cos wanyi know her so many years le... inonly know her for 1++ years... budden i stiu got trust her right? you said. "Some things are best left not to say". sorry, wrong phrasing, is "untold". lolx... anyways... yars. i can choose to say anot wad. since some things are best left untold. dots... nvm. then she left very buaysong-ingly lor. wad? my prob? i say dun want say de. then you want me say. say le like that. waht? my fault? dun say, my fault. say, my fault. then?? i watta do? if i lie, which i dun want to, will hurt u more isnt it? you think over... i dunno if i shd apologise for wad i said... or i shdn't... cos i merely speaking the truth that you want.. yea.
oh yahs, today saw her wif birdie. like back to those gd frens day wifout me of cos. maybe you can say thing is jealousy, but certainly not ENVY. i tot u said she's a piece of rotten bread? i tot u said u dun want friends who talk like so straightforward that hurt your feelings? i tot u siad u wld never forgive her, cos she is a direct copy of everyone and has no originality? now it comes to see that you are one too... as ppl say... "jin zhu zhe chi, jin mo zhe hei" hor... and "she shu yi wo"... meaning the same kind mix together... in case u dunno. then if u are... i personally find u a piece of rotten flipping bread that talks and speaks without going through your brain and always reverse what you say that you will do. at least birdie dun... or seldom. i dun really lyk her too... neither do you. i dun want your forgiveness... or maybe i do cos i dun want to see your idiotic eyes keep diaoing and diaoing. aiyah, why shd i care when its not my eyes.. lolx... erms... i will never be the same.. and... if u think people should treat yo better then the way you treat them... sorry, no. its not possible. like duh? u treat ppl lyk normal but u want ppl to treat u extra good? this world is selfish... no one will... if u think so, you're too naive... and too ignorant.
oh ya... i say why i dun lyk birdie,... cos i find tt she only come t me when she needs me... lyk doing homework for her. treat me lyk wad? but. there is one major prob in me. that is also my weakness. the thing is that i most often go back to the person who hurt me after a while, if they make the first move. i hate this, i want to change and i am. i left *THAT GIRL THAT SPREAD RUMORS ABT ME, BETRAYING MY TRUST FOR HER*. who is so obvious. i do talk to her, cos yah, we still friends, just tt we not so close.
"Life is never fair, so why bother?" thanks for telling me this shir... hehe... ^^
Yes, life is never fair, so why bother? live your life to the fullest... and throw away those irritating boring shits.
With tt i end today's post... whoo... a long one! i spent like 30mins to type! ahh, i'll be back to neopets, ciao, you pathetic humans.. including me... lolx...
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